She cries a river

" It's when you're trying so hard to move on
but the pain keeps holding on
and all you can do at night is cry

Can't explain the feeling..
It's like hatred,anger,self-pity and emptiness all in one
I thought his the one..
The one i am waiting for the longest time..... but then again Im wrong!

Gave my love and affection to someone i barely know..
I'm still hoping that you'll come back, running.. saying the words I wanted to hear

" Im so stupid to hurt and let you go..please come back"

"I'll be fine, all is good ".. that I say to my self
Oh well, thank you tho.. you made this heart stronger..
you made me love myself first before loving anyone else

I saw my self DOOMED crying over and over again..
cause after all the laughter and happy thoughts of my outside world
at the end of the day..in my room.. when I'm all alone
as I cry whenever i hear our song play
reminisce our happiest time together..
That's the time I say to myself..

"I'LL BE FINE, ALL IS GOOD.."
AND REALLY, I CANNOT WAIT TO HATE YOU!!
BUT THEN...
WHEN THEY ASK...
"DO YOU MISS HIM????"
AND MY ANSWER IS...

"I DON'T MISS HIM.. I MISS THE MAN I THOUGHT HE EVER WAS :(( "



xo,
Alex

**I wrote this last april 30,2011,  A pen and paper on my hand and I started writing I think I wrote this whole thing in less than 15 minutes. with mixed emotions,frustration, hurt and pain;GAGO saya eeeeee!HAHAHA